On the subject of 20/20 hindsight. There are many things I could point to now that were out of alignment leading up to the emergency on August 22, 2019. At the time, I wasn’t thinking of them as symptoms of anything but age, stress, depression, newly single over indulgence, and maybe some laziness.
I was depressed for sure. Justine’s illness beginning in 2016 was the start of a snowball that I never recovered from. I won’t detail everything that happened in the 3 years that span August, 2016 to August, 2019, but it was a lot. Anytime I thought I had some air, the downhill roll would start again. I kept telling myself that all I had to do was keep putting one foot in front of the other. Do the next right thing. These are cliches I would have told me if I had come to me for advice.
Continue reading “what is what”
It’s hard to have a sense of humor about kemo (my daughter’s spelling – I’m going to stick with it). Once it’s happening, there’s no turning back. A path to wellness through more sickness. Maybe…
I have had problems with anxiety for as long I can remember. Racing heartbeats, stage fright, social anxiety, whatever… It’s always there. I have landed in the emergency room more than once. I’ve been through long periods of chronic episodes and single episodes that blindside me. Over time, I’ve gotten better at dealing with it. I’ve developed little tricks for dealing with anxiety.
Continue reading “Airplane Glue and Burning Tires”
For the last four weeks, I have been engaged in a job search. My contract with Chevron ended when I was in the hospital (it was a six month contract). We don’t live in a socialist utopia, and I am not rich. So I have to keep working.
For reasons outside of the scope of this writing, I have had a lot of jobs in my life. Which means I have often had to look for work. In the 90’s, I developed some philosophy and methods around looking for work. Spend as much time looking for a job as you plan on working at that job. So if you plan on working 40 hours a week, spend 40 hours a week looking for a job. Go to every interview. Even for jobs you know you don’t want. You can’t turn down a job you don’t have, and you just might be surprised at how different the job sounds when you are actually talking to someone you might be working with. Also, going to a lot of interviews gets you out of yourself. People can feel when you are there just trying to impress them. I generally go for the laughs and try to talk people out of hiring me. It works.
Continue reading “Surgery, Interviews, Guns…”
I wanted to write about chemo before I actually take it. There is always the anticipation of something and the reality. The reality often obscures the anticipation fantasy.
I am terrified of chemo. Our culture builds up chemo to 90’s apocalyptic horror film status. It’s hard to be alive right now and not have some emotional response to the word.
Continue reading “Chemo”
Food is weird. There are a whole lot of experts out there that will tell you what you should be eating even when you don’t have cancer. But then you get sick, and you get a whole lot of advice. It isn’t just cancer. It’s every illness.
I’ll tell you this. There isn’t a whole lot that’s surprising where diet is concerned. And having already attended a GI Cancer Dietician seminar, there isn’t a whole lot that’s agreed upon about diet. There’s the obvious – cut out sugar, fried foods, processed foods, and red meat. Don’t char the lean meats you do eat. Eat whole foods. Yes that’s all pretty obvious. It’s basically what a dietician or nutritionist that didn’t specialize in GI Cancer would tell a perfectly healthy person.
Continue reading “Chemo and Food”
So I have colon cancer, and I’m going to write about it. I have been holding off on writing about it or giving a real update until I had all of the information. I have learned that it’s not a good idea to give any information when there are still outstanding questions because it leads to a lot of questions that don’t have answers. That’s the reason I have been holding off. Having the information is not why I’m writing about it. I want to write about it.
I want to talk about cancer in a way I haven’t seen. I want to joke about cancer. I want to joke about my death. I am not dying. I suppose I could die. I could die in a car crash tomorrow. It’s not all jokes. I am terrified, but I also have general anxiety disorder. I was going to be terrified of something anyway. Might as well be something real.
Continue reading “Audible Dissent”
“There is nothing to writing. All you do is sit down at a typewriter and bleed.” — Hemingway
My third semester at Berklee College of Music, I was in a Harmony/Composition class taught by a talented and accomplished composer whose name I can’t remember. He was blunt without cruelty. We always knew exactly what he thought of our pieces.
Continue reading “writing”
So this another throwback interview. Our close friend and partner with NQuit Music, Aaron Trumm, is our guest host for an interview with D’Santi Nava. He did this interview back in November of 2017. Once again, life got in the way.
D’Santi is a guitarist. He is proficient in many styles including rock, flamenco, classical and others. Aaron and D’Santi cover some common ground as they are both prolific performers.
A link to some more information about D’Santi: http://dsantinava.wixsite.com/elbrujo
And a performance from the New Mexico Music Awards: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MlZ2zZT4bCI
It seems impossible that it’s already been 3 months since the last episode with Duke Hunter. That episode was recorded in November. So essentially we have been quiet for the last 9 months.
A lot of things have happened in my personal life including a move. It’s been difficult to locate all of the gear in these moves, and I have just not been in a place to be able to create. But we finally have the gear set up and a new room. We’ll see if the consistency follows.
In this episode, we talk a little about the changes in personal life. Troy talks about what he’s got going on. Then we talk about the post production fiasco that is our first feature film with Studio Iguanamonk. There will be more discussion of this film in future episodes.
It’s good to have another episode in the can. I hope you enjoy it.
It has been a very long time since I put a podcast out. This one was recorded in November. Sometimes life gets in the way of my creative endeavors. Sometimes I get in the way of everything. In this case, it’s clear that I have been in the way.
My maudlin self-reflection is for another post. This post is about Duke Hunter. And Duke Hunter is a bad ass. Percussionist, musician, teacher, music teacher, athlete, in line skater… His energy is infectious. I have been to Botanga and he is a solid musician. We had a good time interviewing him. He seemed to have a good time talking to us. As the podcast progresses, I hope to get Duke involved in some more discussions.
Duke plays often with Gisele Duque at Batanga: Batanga Music Events
There is much to admire about Duke. He is a solid human being.
So I’m a couple weeks behind in editing, so you get the Thanksgiving episode now. Not really. I mean we don’t really talk about Thanksgiving at all. I just happen to mention it in the beginning of the episode. Continue reading “TPP 25 – Artifacts and Fear”
This is an episode of I Hate Art with Ashley O’Shenanigans. We talk about Zine Fest Houston 2017 and how much there was to see. Then we get into the I Hate Art segment where I tried to get into a discussion about mentors but nobody was into it. They wanted to talk about the late Kenny Cordray and the Houston Urban Legends around his involvement with ZZ Top and David Bowie.
In episode 23, we talk about the eccentrics. Initially inspired by the Netflix documentary about Joan Didion, we explore what’s missing from today’s social media landscape. How we, as artists, are encouraged to not be eccentric by continually being marketed the idea that we need to find our market. Maybe we don’t need to find our market. Continue reading “TPP 23 – IHA Eccentrics”
Aaron Trumm (NQuit Music), interviews Joyce Kettering – Musician, Composer, Instrumentalist, Entrepenur. Joyce was working as a contracts compliance auditor at a Fortune 500 company in 2016 when she decided to become a lot more serious about her music. So she started recording. A lot of recording. Now she’s doing music full time. Continue reading “TPP 22 – AT Joyce Kettering”
Episode 21 is an I Hate Art segment. It figures that our best episode is followed by our worst episode. There’s some stuff to laugh at. Kids screaming in the background. An old light that we tried to add to our production kit just about catches on fire. We never really caught a rhythm on this one, but it’s funny sometimes and it’s short.
One thing that I referred to in the end that is a good takeaway. The Wheelworkers at the Satellite Bar in Houston, TX, October 27, 2017. Last time I saw them at Fitz, they were great. A visual show with public domain movies playing on a screen behind them. Modular synths. Good songs. I bought a CD. Continue reading “TPP 21 – IHA Meanderings”
In Episode 20 of the Twisted Pop Podcast, we interview actor, writer, filmmaker, producer and director Sarita Callender, aka Jade Lesyeux. Jade was Sarita’s alias while she was in the Witness Protection Program. We have yet to interview anyone that hasn’t surprised us in some way. Even people that we’ve known for a long time have told us things that we didn’t know about them. No one caught us more off guard than Sarita Callender.
As the interview opened, I asked Sarita why she had an alias. She responded that she had been in the Witness Protection Program. We had no idea whether she wanted to pursue the details of that story in a podcast with two guys that she had met only minutes previous to the interview, but we left the door open. Continue reading “TPP 20 – Sarita (Jade) Callender”
In this episode, we talk about following someone else’s vision versus following your own versus working with a team. It’s a dense subject. We could probably spend a whole lot of time defining each of these ideas first. Continue reading “TPP 19 – IHA Whose Vision”
In this episode of the Twisted Pop Podcast, we interview Bryan King. Bryan is a writer – graphic novels, comic books, novels. I actually don’t think I have a good sense of all that Bryan does, but it’s a lot. Continue reading “TPP 18 – Bryan King”
This week’s I Hate Art segment of the Twisted Pop Podcast, we talk about the lies we tell ourselves. Maybe everyone does this, but we’re talking specifically about what we do as artists. In the 9 to 5, talking my way through my day. I am satisfied because I am doing a good job, but this isn’t a profession I chose. It’s the profession that made the most money. And frankly, most people end up in a 9 to 5 that chose them, so cry me a river. Continue reading “TPP 17 – Lies Lies Lies”
This week we have Dielle, as in Dielle Music. Dielle is a singer/songwriter based in the UK. She lives near the Isle Of Wight. Dielle is a determined and dedicated professional. She’s got content everywhere. Continue reading “TPP 16 – Dielle”